Struggles and Strife

I'm scared and in tears
Hoping for a calm to these fears
I'm desperate and worthless
Wanting not to be faithless
I listen to the lies I keep making
I want to kill this life I keep faking

My life is a twisted mess
It consists of too many wounds to dress
It's always one thing after another
I have no time to duck for cover
I see the lights up above
They speak of my lost love

My mind has folded over its creases
I'm waiting for it to shatter to pieces
Insanity; is it really so bad?
What drives me to want to go mad?
Am I really so lost
That I'd pay my mind, the cost?

The truth is I would
In fact, I'd do all that I could
To lose sight of what is real
I'd give anything to not feel
Because I'm tired of life
Of these struggles and strife

I know this is wrong, that I shouldn't give in
I know there is hope beyond this dismal din
But Lord I can't take it
And I'm so tired of faking it
So show me the hope of true joy
Show me this life isn't some hilarious ploy

I'll keep pressing onward and stay faithful to You
I'll keep searching for a hope, brand new
I've surrendered my life solely for You
You'll keep me sane, that much I know to be true
Though it is hard and I can't do it alone
To reach you beyond, my sins, will I atone?


The truth is I would
In fact, I'd do all that I could
To focus on You, who alone is real
Only Your love I'll feel
Because I'm tired of life
Of these struggles and strife