My Mind... Part 2

I have a great dislike for society.

For one, all your life, you're taught that there are two types of people- right-brained and left-brained. Creative types and mathematical types. People always always have one preference for the way they think... If you're left-brained, you have a more logical, sequential, rational, analytical, objective way of thinking. You like to examine each individual part of something rather than just accepting it as a whole. If you're right-brained, your way of thinking is more random, intuitive, holistic, synthesizing, subjective. Right away you look at the whole picture rather than each individual piece of the picture. Society pushes this idea into us. It caters to each side of the brain as per the individual. If you're right-brained, you have this set of careers from which to choose. If you're left-, you get to choose from this set.

Mostly why I hate this "ideal"? I don't fit in.

I always struggled with this. Most of my life I just went along with the idea that I was right-brained. I planned on Graphic Design for my career, I played up the role of a shy, creative type. I was supposed to be one or the other, and since I loved to draw, write, sing, dream; music keeps me going and The Lord of the Rings are the best books ever written, I must be right-brained.

So someone tell me, why did I take apart all my pens as a kid so I could figure out how pushing a button at the top made the point come out and then retract? Why do I weigh the pros and cons before stepping into any situation? Why are mysteries like the ones Agatha Christie writes my absolute favorite books to read? (Why is my math homework to my right and my sketch pad to my left? o.O)

My favorite subjects in school are and always have been Science and English. I can't choose whether I want to go to college for English or Counseling. I love to poor my soul out by singing but I'd have just as much fun being the band's manager. Etcetera.

Basically, I'm somewhat of an oxymoron with flesh.

A freak of nature.

An outcast.

But recently, like within the past 4-6 months, I've actually come to terms with it. I've accepted the way my brain operates. While it's frustrating as all heck to have emotions of rejection simply for my parents pointing how my schedule for getting the laundry done in one day is flawed (because that schedule is a thing that I created), it's how God created my mind and I'll learn to utilize it somehow.

After all, why did the "ideal Renaissance man", the same man whose designs involved primitive prototypes for things like the machine gun and armored tanks, paint the Mona Lisa? Why did many of his artistic works include very scientific sketches of human anatomy? DaVinci was definitely a walking oxymoron to the most extreme.

Society doesn't get me. But I'm perfectly okay with that, because I don't get Society.

I read the dicitonary when I'm bored. I stare at the ceiling fan working out in my mind why it turns the way it does. I sketch my cat completely aware that her ear is a 60 degree angle. I can get lost in math problems just as easily as I can get lost in a J.R.R. Tolkien novel. When involved in a conversation I am aware of my mind putting together equations of what words to say to merit which series of responses.

Oh, and did you know that, contrary to common belief, the sky isn't blue because of the ocean? The earth is mostly water, and we're taught, therefore, that the sky reflects the blue of the ocean. However, in order for this theory to work, the ocean has to have its own source of... blueness. So why is the ocean blue? The preferential absorption of long-wavelength (red) light gives rise to the blue. Basically, the ocean can't possibly be the cause of the sky being blue because the ocean isn't technically blue itself. It's only blue because of the way the light reflects off of it...

Micheal Kruger says, "The sky is blue not because the atmosphere absorbs the other colors, but because the atmosphere tends to scatter shorter wavelength (blue) light to a greater extent than longer wavelength (red) light. Blue light from the sun is scattered every which way, much more so than the other colors, so when you look up at the daytime sky you see blue no matter where you look. This scattering is called 'Rayleigh scattering'; the amount of scattering goes as the frequency of the light to the 4th power."

So really, the sky isn't blue because of the water, and the water isn't even blue itself. They both appear blue because of the way the atmosphere distributes light.

By the way, please ask me about one of the novels I'm writing... I'd love to share one with you. One's about a girl and her unicorn. (;